
i want to say this to every single person i know
Do you think it is easy waking up and feeling disappointment because you’re alive? Do you think I like not being able to mentally handle eating more than x amount of calories a day? Do you think I like not being able be happy? Do you think it’s easy for me knowing that I could relapse back into cutting at any moment? Do you think I like being called crazy or being told that my habits and coping mechanisms are unhealthy. Do you think I like knowing that I’m not normal and that I’m not okay? No.
You’ll miss me. Maybe not now, maybe not soon, but you will.